Ninomiya Little sister is Me..
well.. how is everyone? I hope you're doing okay. me? no.. I am still in really bad shape, actually. recently, I've realized something, that I am really resemble with that person, who? Ninomiya Kazunari. well, I am too scared to read about him actually, too scared to know a lot about him, because we're look alike. our vision, our thinking, our bad mood, well.. maybe the thing that different just I am a woman and he is a man.. and I am an ordinary girl and she is an artist.. but really.. too scared when you know someone that really resemble with you.. too scared.
well.. maybe she's right. he's a male version of me. we're same. I often find our smile is same too.. oh please!! so, is there really a male version of me? and am I really looks Kazu-niichan? huweeeee~~ but really, looking for someone who look alike with you is hard. even I know that myself is too paranoid to know about something.
paranoid..
the word of this makes me scared. I am not paranoid. I made my self to think that way, but day after day, I see my reflection was scared with something ridiculous like.. I am scared being in relationship with.. human. not someone but humans. you know? relationship is frightening. someday, you won't know that the one beside you right now maybe will be your enemy.. someday, the thing that you think can make you happy, is the think that crashed you.. I am scared.. if I am really have that disorder. how can I escape from that? I wanna cure this.. it makes me uneasy. you see? how you feel uneasy when you feel that everyone is looking at you, when you think that everyone is mad at you.. when you think that you can't trust people because you feel that everyone has a hidden desire inside them.. it's hard even for me.. I feel like that.. since I was a child.. and it makes me scared.. what if this continue until I get old? what if this disorder makes people around me avoiding me..? just please.. I don't want tobe alone.. I don't want being rejected anymore.. just please.. help me..
well.. maybe she's right. he's a male version of me. we're same. I often find our smile is same too.. oh please!! so, is there really a male version of me? and am I really looks Kazu-niichan? huweeeee~~ but really, looking for someone who look alike with you is hard. even I know that myself is too paranoid to know about something.
paranoid..
the word of this makes me scared. I am not paranoid. I made my self to think that way, but day after day, I see my reflection was scared with something ridiculous like.. I am scared being in relationship with.. human. not someone but humans. you know? relationship is frightening. someday, you won't know that the one beside you right now maybe will be your enemy.. someday, the thing that you think can make you happy, is the think that crashed you.. I am scared.. if I am really have that disorder. how can I escape from that? I wanna cure this.. it makes me uneasy. you see? how you feel uneasy when you feel that everyone is looking at you, when you think that everyone is mad at you.. when you think that you can't trust people because you feel that everyone has a hidden desire inside them.. it's hard even for me.. I feel like that.. since I was a child.. and it makes me scared.. what if this continue until I get old? what if this disorder makes people around me avoiding me..? just please.. I don't want tobe alone.. I don't want being rejected anymore.. just please.. help me..