shout?

ah~ finally I've recovered.. well, even though not totally recover but I don't care.. why should I care anyway ? LOL okay okay.. I should, because this is my own body, right? and I have to take care of my self, right? I know~ XDD

well.. my mood, my life, and the me currently.. not so good, but not so bad. just feel, why everyone think I've changed anyway? is that because the me who used to be cry baby is no longer appear? or is that because now, I looked different? which side? I'm Lha and will be Lha forever who sharp tongue, cry baby, bad mouth, sociable, too much talk and annoying... I will be Lha who will always try to be cool in front of people, try to be strong even though she's freakin fragile, and well... absurd.. that's me~ see? oh... maybe one thing, I'm no longer talking anything about my own problem...

be honest, my dears..
I love you all... I don't want to be a burden for whoever it is.. I'm strong because you all rely on me.. just it, in the end, I'll keep telling you what's wrong with me right? I will run and hug you all and cry like a baby when I can't keep it by my self anymore.. but! as long as I can handle it, please, rely on me... that's my power of life... please tell me what ever you feel.. please call me when you need me.. please anything... share it with me.. because that's my power... to be trust.. that's my power...

hei...

we're born in this planet was destined to be together like an orion... that's what I believed... so please, that's not mean I don't need you or I didn't believe you at all.. not!! because... world will be balance if I do this, right? help and to be helped.. rely on and to be relied.. that's what the world is work... and I'll do it too.. for who ? of course for you all... not for me.. the hell I care if it was about me..

hei...

smile for me, okay? I have too much burden too, but! I know that yours is more and more... so, please, be happy... be smile... and.. one thing again...


please... rely on me..

please.. call me,...

please.. don't think anything about me...

please... I'm not changed at all and I won't do it forever...

please... you don't want me to cry, right? :D

so please.... dears... my Orion...

smile for me.. okay? but from the bottom of your heart.. because it's my power...

okay?