Final decision.

 I really wish that this is the best decision in my life. 

I remember I was doing this back then during my high school years. I decided to move away from those people who said, "we dislike your presence". 

Indeed, it is very easy for me to move away from someone, let alone the people that I once thought would be with me for a long time. Human's relationship is a temporary thing. I didn't blame anyone; I also didn't blame myself for this thing to happened. I just realized that the railway has no longer aligned. I was thinking this for a long time and finally decide to break free. I loved them. I once treasured their presence a lot. I also felt happy during our time together because all the deep talk had ever saved me from drowning several times. Thanks to them, I could be the person I am now. Even though during the time we were together I sometime felt being left behind and they looked so happy without me, but I am sure they also treasured me a lot. I was so sad that a lot of things happened, and it made us--to be exact me to separate my way from them. I didn't hate them, but I had enough. 

So, what do I think about friendship now? 

The more I experience losing, the more I understand that some people aren't mean to be in my life for a long time and that is okay. They were sad? I knew it. They feel left behind by me? I understand. I really hope they understand that my decision to cut myself off from them is my best decision. Since that time when one of them decided to cut me off, that was over. I could break free now. 

Thank you anyways, for the time that we spent together for years. It was a super fun time guys. I loved being with you all that time too, but I realized I couldn't do it anymore. The wound has become wider and wider and it is difficult for me to pretend that everything is okay. I do forgive but not forget. 

The moment when you felt tired of my bullshit? I knew those moments www 

The moment when you felt that I was so annoying for not helping one of you at work? I also knew it. 

I am sorry I couldn't please you all at once. 

Thank you for all the caring moments that you did for me. I really appreciated them. I knew that your caring was not a lie at all but now I am okay. Let's go separate our way and have our own life from now on. 

Thank you.